Monday, August 02, 2004

Ahhhhhh!!!!... Ahhhhhhh!!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!... =.=!

Bleh... I definitely failed my FM2 mid-term paper... Could only answer ONE out of FIVE questions >.<... Serves me right for skipping classes like it's nobody's business T.T... Oh well, as if I'd miraculously get a better mark out of whining... Better start hitting the library soon, for MSN that is :P...

Well, Kaede send me a message mentioning that she fainted... FAINTED!!!... *Look miserable altogether*... Merciful Lord, let there be no harm to my sister >.<...

Class today was... ... ... Okay?... Yep, it's okay, allright... Fiqh 1 is as usual, except for the Thai brother who had been absent for sometimes... And I missed the first quiz... Yesh =.=''... Next was FM2, which almost HALF of the class went missing... Getting into a new chapter, divident policy decision, that is... Sounds like a very hard chapter @_@... And last but not least, Method of Da'wah... Dr. Yamin Cheng went on to talking about Bush jr. (on my cue :p), and also discussed about some terms that was often being misunderstood by all Malaysian, such as JIHAD and PREACHING... Will talk about that later, IF anyone is interested...

It seems that EVERYONE is changing their blog layout... And somehow I'm incline to do so... Maybe I will, once I have the time and will to do so XD... I'm a very lazy person you know... Especially when it comes to troublesome matters...

Gotten my hand on the Gospel of Barnabas... Pretty enlighting, I'd say...

War on Tenzan had subsided (I hope)... At least the way Incognito-san was putting it... Don't know about An-san, though... I hope this ends for good... I hate when people flaming one another... Hopefully my message board won't be a verbal battlefield, though... I have other matters to worry about (and Alex is one of it T.T)...

Been hitting Diablo 2: LOD again... An old game, yet I can't have enough of it XD...

Wel, that's all for now... Oh, I forgot... Just in case any of the Christian readers thinks that I'm hell-bent on proving something religiously, believe me, I'M NOT... I'm just interested on some intellectual discussion... Just as the Muslim speaker said on the inter-religious talk, "let us find what is common between us, and be consistent with it"...

Jaa, shitsure shimasu :3...

Friday, July 30, 2004

Interfaith discussion rulez XD...

Ah, last night was a blast... UIA held an interfaith discussion regarding the concept of God, and invited one representative of each major religion in Malaysia; Christianity, Hinduism, Buddhism, and of course, Islam... It was an enlighting discussion, although I can't help but to pity the Christian representative who were bombarded with sarcastic question regarding the concept of Holy Trinity... One of the female student even similarized the concept with a shampoo @_@...

The discussion was fairly good, but the main attraction was the disciple of the late Ahmed Deedat, who is also the representative for Islam... He qouted the concept of God in Islam not only from the Qur'an, but also from the Vedas as well as the Bible... I can almost see the look of astonishment of the President of Hindudharma as well as the Malaysian Catholic Arcbishop... I wonder if I'll have the chance to study under him later on... Afterall, all the holy scriptures of all religions tells us to seek for the ultimate truth, right?...

One thing for sure, the Buddhist speaker was kinda out of place, since Buddhism is a philosophy, rather than a religion... This is verified by the speaker himself, since he said that Buddhism and Confuciounism (I somehow don't think I spelled it right -__-) belongs to the same group... Therefore, on my opinion, a Buddhist can also be a Muslim at the same time... Why?... Because he's just following a set of philosophy... Therefore, it does not contradict with having another religion... It's like a Westerner practicing the Bushido way of life, yet he's a Christian...

I hope that there'll be another interfaith discussion soon... Or if any of the readers would like to have an interfaith discussion with me, do tell... I'd be delighted... The objective is just to have a discussion, not to convert the other into another religion... What matters most is that the truth is revealed, the acceptance of the truth is voluntary...

Enough about last night... I know that some of you were concerned about my last entry... Shinpai suru koto wa nai yo, minna... I'm okay... Although still kinda depressed since Alex was serious about not talking to me anymore T_T... Oh well, my fault... No use crying over it T_T (*got smacked by Kaede* crying and saying that at the same time does not convince people, baka neko!!)... I don't know if you're reading this, Alex... But I'm not asking much... I'm just asking for another chance to start from scratch... Then again, that might be asking too much already...

And guys, rather than worrying about me, I think we should be worrying about Tenzan and Cypher instead... Tenzan han an encounter with a pair of God-knows-who, who seems to take pleasure in making Ten's life a living Hell... As for Cypher, it seems that his ex's friends are taking the broken relationship matter into their own hands... *Sigh* why do people wish to be left in peace when they themselves make other people's life Hell... Now that's asking too much...

And I'm kinda worried about Kaede... It seems that she's been overworking herself lately... Lack of sleep, lack of proper meals (hey, that kinda sounds like me)... She should take care of herself if she wants to go to the limit... Ok, I sound like her mum, but hey, she's my sister... Although not biologically or etnically, but still my sister... Which brother won't be worried when his sister is not well?... To Kaede, get a hold of yourself, okay... Overdoing it will finish some work, but you'll never be satisfied with the result...

Oh well, tomorrow : Financial Management 2 Mid-term test... Haven't studied yet... Hopefully I can understand the bloody subject by 6am tomorrow... *laughs like a maniac, and bangs head on the wall every 5 minutes* Tanoshii na, Cho Gonou...

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

Yahhari, I'm a good for nothing afterall...

Guess what... I'm a good for nothing after all... Alex, apologizing would be an insult to you... It's my fault... Nothing can ever change that... Heh, no wonder I'm still ALONE all these time... I don't even deserve a place to belong to, much less someone to belong to... To anyone who reads this entry, this is the real me... Please stay away from me, for your own good... Please...

shinnoir... i trusted u wif those contents... do u know what would nubli feel if he sees it? or how would ppl be treating him after they read it on ur blog?? what about how i feel?i trusted u..and u posted it on the web for everyone to see? well here;s another statement to be posted on ur blog.. I DON'T WANNA TALK TO YOU ANYMORE~!dun bother worrying... i wouldn't tell on u.. on any blog...

Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!... Kuso, kuso, kusooooooo!!!!... *pant, pant*...

Bah!... I'm sooo in a destructive mood, I'd punch anyone who'd dare to rub me the wrong way these few days =.=""... I'm going to have a competition in two days time, and NONE of my so-called FRIENDS are willing to lend me a hand, much less moral support... Right now our team lacks two participants, and those whom I called gave me the lamest excuse I could've think of... One said, "Busy", yet have the guts to ask what competition... I can almost hear the, "NO" coming out by the time she said, "BUSY"... Another said, "Saye mesyuarat pon tak pergi, takkan nak masuk pertandingan?" (I don't even go to meetings, why should I participate in a competition?)... Come on, get real!!... This is not "School Days" anymore, it's our "Varsity Era", for God's sake... True, academic is important, no doubt about that, but it's through co-curricular activities all that we've learned theoretically are practically tested... Our communication skills, perceptions, critical thinking skills, and most importantly, teamwork... All this are not tested in an exam hall... Mattaku, this is what I hated most about Malaysia's exam-oriented education system... Bleargh, I'm sooo not going to talk to anyone after the competition, regardless whether I win or lose... Zettai ni *pouts*...

Neways, lots have happened in the past few days... Got my digikame a fortnight ago, and even became one of the facilitators for my High School's motivation camp... Okashii na, for someone like me to be a motivator XD... And last Saturday, went to Bon Odori Festival (and got lost during the festival, too >_<)... Seeing sooo many people wearing yukata makes me wanted to go to Japan more... Need the money first, though >_<... Will definitely go to Bon Odori next year, alone, that is... Not going to tag Shinta-kun and Habu-chan along anymore... How could they not enjoy the festival... Habu-chan even said that it's BORING =.='''''... The next day, went out to see Kaede, since I didn't get to see her in her costume... And suprise, suprise... Our famous lovebird is there too (Aiko and Chris, who else)... It's my first time seeing them (Aiko is getting a bit chubby, and Chris is sooooo hilarious... Maybe I should "rampas" him from Aiko XD)... And later the next day, chatted with Ten and Aiko... Ten listened on my singing, and said that I still have a long way to go... Chatted with him for quite some time, too... He's sure a nice guy, but he'd be nicer if he could work out his facial expression...

I've been watching a lot of animes lately... Getbackers, Trigun, Azumanga Daioh, etc... Getbackers somehow touched me... I see people yearning for a place they belong to, and found someone they belong to along with that they seek... As in, someone who accepts you as you are... Even the sissy-ish Kazuki... I know this might sound pathetic, but although it's just an anime, I envy them so much... To have someone who'd be there in all situation, who acknowledges your existence, I have none of those kind of friends... I'm still looking for the place and person that I belong to...  People do say that I've got lots of friends already, but to what extend?... I had a conversation with my sister concerning this, and she said something that somewhat gave me a ray of hope... Then again, I'm too tired to hope anymore... Hoping just makes it even more painful... the sadness of sorrow of being lonely, I wonder if I'd ever find someone who'd willingly share them with me... Maybe I'm destined to ease other people's sadness and sorrow, yet I have to shoulder mine on my own... The thought of that makes me want to cry, yet my tears have long dried... Ano ne, Kaede-chan... I really hope that someday I'll find that person, whom I belong to, kare ka kanojo ka, it doesn't matter... As long as I belong to that person... Demo ne, are there really any at all?...

Thursday, July 08, 2004

Thank God for the food XD...

Ahhh... Finally, goodbye hunger XD XD... Mum had deposited some money this morning, and I got to treat myself to a wholesome lunch... It has been sometimes since the last time I had a decent lunch... But I might resort to my usual 3 peices of bread routine soon... XD XD...

Anyway, Kaede seems to be very busy at the moment... Since she hasn't updated her blog... Hopefully she's fine... Alexia sent me a message via Friendster, and I don't like what I read...

I know she's waaaay stronger spiritually as compared to me, but the way she sounded really makes me worried... She's important to me, because she's one of my closest "siblings", besides Kaede and Aiko... The fact that we haven't really met makes her even more special... Hey, there are very few people who'd trust me enough to tell me their up and downs without even meeting me in person... Even those who knew me upclose and personal are reluctant to do so... I hope she'll be fine... I'll rip off the stars from the heaven to make it fine for her, if I have to...

That's all for now, I think...

Jya, shitsure shimasu...

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

Nyaa... Hisashiburi deshou, ne?...

Wohoo... It has been some days, these few days... Ah, wasureta... Gomen ne, minna... I promised to be online everyday, but my computer won't let me go:P *background: kaede shouts "LAME EXCUSE* *got whacked on the head by kaede* Ouch >_<...

Well, lemme start with Saturday... Went to the first meeting of the archery class... I manage to dumb-struck the class by saying that I choose that class because I'm interested with Japanese art of archery... Then one of the girls asked me whether I'm interested about Bushido, the way of the Samurai... Heck, of course I do :P... Later, the class elected me as the leader/monitor... Mendokusei =_=""...

Next, went straight to KLCC, gathering with my seniors... As usual,I'm a bit left out... Because I'm not as loud as they can be, contrary to popular belief :3... And also because I'm not really the person they'd wanted to see... In every gathering we had before, the limelight would definitely be on Ihab... It's not like I'm jealous or something... Actually it's better this way... All the easier for me to slip away from time to time... Ne?... Left the gath at 1pm, and headed straight to TS, for the next gath :3...

On the way, Ihab suggested that we use another way... His argument was, "trying a new path"... Sou desu ne ^^'... It turns out that his way is a bit farther than my usual route... Then again, I can never argue with him anyway... Because first, he's good at arguing...And second, he's my *heards Kaede clearing her throat* BESTFRIEND... @Kaede: keep that a secret, okay :P... Arrived at TS at about 1.30pm, and met Kaede, Tofu, Craymel, and Mr. Dracula... I wonder the looks on Ihab's face when I hugged Kaede... I hope he won't despise me for that >_<... Hugging a girl is a no-no for him... Kaede immediately dragged me to McD, and we chatted about all things possible... As for Ihab, he impressed Mr. Dracula with his moves on the EZ2D machine XD XD... That's my bestfriend for you :P... Me and Kaede headed back to the arcade once notified of Tenzan's arrival... He's somewhat... ... ... gloomy?... Yeah, that's the word... I wonder why... Ihab had went back to KLCC by then... After a couple of hours spent there, we headed to the juice parlor downstairs, and continue chatting... After that, me and Cypher walked Kaede to the LRT station, and after that both of us walked back to KLCC... One thing I can say about Cypher now... He talks really fast, similar to the way he dances... Try talking slowly, ne, Cypher-kun... Arrived at UIA around 9pm, and went to sleep after prayer...

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SUNDAY

Usually Sunday is one of my FUNDAY, but not today >_<... Nothing much happened... Except the part which Kaede dreaded so much :P... That's it, she has a blood donation today... I wonder how it went... Also, the latest Aiko situation arised... Worse than I could ever imagines, since my uber hot-tempered step-dad had never dished me to THAT extend... The only time I had such beating was in Form 2 and 4... By students =_=... There are some other things that happened, but I'd keep that to myself until I'm ready to tell it to ya'll, okay :3...

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MONDAY

Uwaaaahhh... I still can't adapt to the student life >_<... Skipped one class today, since I went to Mandarin Oriental to apply for a baito... The workers there were NOT friendly at all :<... Didn't get the job TT______TT since my hair is a wee bit too long... Called my mom for financial reinforcement, and later went to KLCC to read some books... Demo ne, I kinda felt a bit blue yesterday... Well, I don't really know why... It's just a feeling I guess... Met Reza at RHB bank... He was meeting his "adik angkat" (hmm, maybe someday I could drag Kaede around and brag about her XD XD)... Ihab called on the way home, just when I was thinking about him *Yaoi alert :P*... He was thinking about coming over, but had to ditch the plan since he thought I was out... Oh well, the weather's not good anyway... I worry about him ten folds knowing that he's riding a bike after rain... He's an accident prone, I tell you... Started my GTO series marathon...

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TODAY

TT_________TT... My famous bad luck is getting worse TT__________TT... Mum said that I might get my reinforcement tomorrow only... There goes my haircut... And now I only have RM1... Literally broke TTTTTT___________________TTTTTT... Haraheta... ... ... Neways, finished GTO, and I was crying watching some of the episodes... Ima kara, boku wa kyoushu ni naritai *starry eyes*... Maybe someday I'll be GTI/GTS XD XD...

Ano ne... Kaede hasn't reply my e-mail... Perhaps she's busy... I just hope she was not offended with the e-mail I sent before... Nanka kowaichatta... To be honest, there are only 3 people that I really have great affection to... My Mum, Ihab, and Kaede... Dakara ne, I don't want to lose her, as a sister or as a friend... Zettai ni...

Mattaku, I'm talking nonsense again... Baka Shinnoir...

Jya, shitsure shimasu :3...

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

Nyan nyan~~~ :3

Nyao~~... It has been SOME week >_<... I spent the whole last week waiting for a job, got one, then later had to ditch the job... Why?... Because it's a full-time job, and I'm not in the mood to quit my study yet... Haih... The position was as a Marketing Executive... Pretty neat, huh?... Starting salary was RM800, increased after 3 months of service... I wonder how long it took my dad to get that much of money when he started working at Hospital Bahagia Tampoi 20 years ago...

Ihab's back, and hell, his hair's DAMN LONG... My first reaction when he stepped out of the car = "You're a girl"... We went out to TS with Shinta, since Ihab is another DDR and PPP maniac that can only be rivaled by Cypher the Dancing Dracula XD... And since he brought bach 500 pound sterling with him, you can expect him to be at TS everyday... Just look for a Malay who looked like a girl with moustache, about my height... Ask him if he knows ISMAT (that's me)... If he says yes, that's Ihab...

At the moment, I'm feeling a bit out of tune... Something is just not right with me... Every now and then, I had to give myself a Konoha Dai Senpuu just to keep me on the track... Don't ask me why, since I myself don't have the answer... It's hard to be Shinnoir, since no one really understands you... Even yourself TT_________TT...

Bah, this is no time to be moping around about some unknown glitch... Next plan: another outing with Kaede... Might drag along Shinta and Ihab (the more the merrier)... All forumers (CA and DIVIDE, and others interested) are cordially invited... Just head straight to TS' Arcade... It will be on this coming Saturday, but I have to confirm the time with my sister first... She might not come, but hell, I'll definitely be there... I need the break anyway... After all, I'm thinking about applying a baito at Mandarin Hotel (beside KLCC)... My roommate said that the pay is good, and they pay on the spot :3...

Well, that's all for now... Will update the next time I hit the computer lab... Oh, btw, no MSN for several months... So if you'd like to contact me or anything, give me a call/ send me an SMS at 0163451734 or send an e-mail to nostradame_83@hotmail.com or nostradame_83@yahoo.co.uk... And to those who would like to come to the outing this Saturday, I'd like to borrow Getbackers and Yami no Matsuei... Gravitation would be nice, too... I'm in a mood for YAOI XD XD...

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Baito~~... Baito~~... Oh~~~...

Ohmygod... It has been a hectic couple of days... And my poor body really needs a masseuse... An OSIM chair would be great X3...

Neways, as some of you had already known, I'M AT KL RIGHT NOW!!! *kiss the ground*... WHEE~~!!!... I arrived at around 6.30pm on Monday, took a Putra to Terminal Putra Gombak, and a taxy straight to UIA... Arrived at home at 8 something, and the first thing I did right after I dropped my bags (which could be as heavy as Kaede and Aiko put together *yuri-yuri*) was to find my "pigeon hole"... I have 4 choices, and I got the worst that I can think of... The room with the worst nostalgic value, and it's on the top floor >.<... Oh well, at least I got a place XD... After some light dinner (a large soya drink and some choc buns), I tried to sleep (almost failed miserably T_T)... The only thing racing through my mind was meeting my sister the next day...

TUESDAY
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Woke up as early as I could (which I can't do at home XD)... Prepared my letters and head for the Kuliyah of Economics and Management Sciences Main Office... Submitted the letter for the Deputy Dean of Academic Affairs of the Kuliyah, and then went to have a drink at the cafe... Since the departmental offices is yet to get operational (offices nowadays, the signs says open at 8.30am, but staffs come at 9am) I went for my favorite activity, STROLLING... Read a few articles on the notice board for sponsorship, and got the biggest shock in my life... The cut-off point for PTPTN was based on GPA!!!... Just what I need, a reason to work... Hang out at the STADD office (a restricted place for some of my friends XD XD)... And got a call from the Kuliyah office... Got a date with the Deputy Dean of Accademic Affairs... Met the Head of Department of Accounting on the way to the office, and asked his permission to change department... Granted without any question XD XD... Wheeee!!!... The interview with the Deputy Dean went smoothly, and she granted my request, too... Wheeeeee!!!!... Now I can worry less about my fees, phew...

Went to TS at 11.30, and for the first time got a chance to take a ride on the Monorail (I'm sooooo outdated T_T)... Arrived at 12.00 (or was it earlier?)... hang out at McD, then went to the arcade... Bought something for my sister (ask her if you're curious :3)... Then get some tokens, and shoot some balls... There's no way I'm playing any dancing games, at least not until my feet are convinced to move as I told them to... Kaede arrived at around 1.30pm (hey, I thought school's over at 2pm)... And boy, both of us were excited... The first thing we both did was get some lunch (note to self: cold drinks and athma works together very badly >.<)... We talked about a lot of things, and spend most of the time laughing XD XD... And to my suprised, one of my UIA mates is there @_@... So, I proudly introduced him to my sister XD...

At 3pm, both of us hit the arcade, and at the ez2d machine was Cypher (it's his life there), Bunny-chan, Xiao Ying, and Kitsu... First thought that came in mind when I saw Kitsu = This fox really needs to exercise XD... Then Hairil literally shocked me out of my socks when he came from my back... That git XD... Spend a few hours there, shoots some balls, and at around 5.30/6pm, I walked Kaede to the LRT station...

Then the hunt for baito begins... I asked 7-11 (TS), McD (TS), Burger King (KLCC), Watson (KLCC), and a bowling alley at Ampang Park... The last two, I'll be having an interview today (I hope I got the job at Watson)... So, wish me luck, okay...

Oh, on the way back home, an old "maknyah" asked me a few questions... He's currently broke, and in need for some money... Since I kinda a bit too generous with money, I handed him RM5 and said no when he asked if I got 10... He makes me wonder about my life... He said that he's 50, and no life partner... That's a pity, then again, it could be his punishment for the path he choosed... As for me, I walk my own path... And I know my limits...

Arrived at home at 8pm, and went to sleep right after my very light dinner; a bottle of soya milk and a cheese bread...

TODAY
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Woke up at 3... 3 @_@ !!!!!!!... T_T... Then had trouble to get to sleep back... I'm beginning to miss my comp... Life without jpop to me is worse than at hell... Oh well... It's for the best... It's not like I'll never see my comp again XD... Finally got to sleep again, and woke up at 7...

After a long bath, I got ready for breakfast, chatted with my ex-naqib and his friends... They were sort of impressed with my ideas... Well, who wouldn't be impressed at a stupid person's ideas anyway?... then head straight for the library, to check my schedules online... It seems that I'll be adjusting my academic schedule rather than my working schedule...

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

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Okay... I'm uber bored here... Huhu T_T...

Scarlet
You Are Scarlet.


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light
You are the Angel of Light. YOu dress very bright.
Never wish to fight not even in the darkness of
the night. Which is where you are never seen in
sight.


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Love Angel
Love Angel

You have the power to make people fall in and out
of love. You are one of the more beautiful
angels.


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DesireLove
Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't
been in much relationships or you need to work
on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
a daydream about the person you care about
most.

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HASH(0x8a8da9c)
Ghost or spirit: You are a lost soul. Very calm and
sweet, you are often the one who asks: What if?
With a clever mind, you want to explore the
world on a different level. Without the
answers, you aren't ready to move on. You are
most likely very creative and find yourself
thinking things through on a different level.
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Monday, June 07, 2004

T_T.. I lost my voice... Damn, Etrange is sure funky :3...

Nyaaao~~ >___<... I lost my voice... So, at the moment, I'm more like a bisu person... C A N ' T T A L K !!!!!... I hate this >_<... It has been two days now, and my mum keeps bugging me to talk... My answer?... The business end of my tongue X3...

Wokies, went to Larkin Bus Station to buy Dad's B'day cake... I got German Blackforest... Dunno how does it tastes... Will know soon X3... I think it'll be boring to talk about my life at the moment, so lets talk about my "clan" X3... Aiko's having her usual dilemma... Well, can't help here from here, except with constant consoling... Will be back to KL soon to offer more... Miyabi got herself in something very odd... And to make things even weirder, she had been MIA for quite some time... I'd like to ask Kaede if she knew anything... Yeah, I should do that...

Took an IQ test online, and guess what... I got 147 X3... 146-165 = GENIUS... X3... Then again, since my mom and day always said that i'm foolish, maybe i'm not so genius at all :P...

Friday, June 04, 2004

*Coughs* I feel sick... And worst, I got involved in an accident... Well, it was the taxi that I was boarding that got involved...

The driver was talking tho the passenger (there was another passenger in the cab)... And the old lady gave the directions a tad too late... The taxi driver made a quick turn, and there it was; an old man on a scooter... Fortunately the old man suffers minor injuries on his knuckes and his legs... So, after sending the old lady to her destination, we (yes, me and the taxi driver) send the old man to a clinic, and later to his house... The taxi driver had also paid for the medical bills, using the money he borrowed from his friend... So, since he was in a dire need of money, I told him to make a stop at an ATM machine... And later, I gave him RM50, not including the fare (for the fare, I gave him extra tips :3)... And he asked for mu number (since I was the sole witness)... He will never forget my name then ^_^...

Well, Kede's finally back *glopz Kaede*... But she lost her mp3 collection... Dang, I hate when that happens >_____<...

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

Nyaaa... Jpop All The Way~~~...

Nyao~~ X3... Hisashiburi na... Gomen, gomen... My life is soo boring, it'll kill you if I still put it in my blog... Well, so far nothing SUPER happened... Cypher had a lil prob with a trigger happy Raincloud, Aiko's still in her Vietnam (her mum is the US), Kaede's gone missing (T_T miss her T_T), Miyabi got some photo shoots, etc, etc... As for me, counting the days gone by... I'm somewhat nervous about the coming semester... And much worse, I haven't finished the letter of applying to change my major... Eeep... Oh well... It's not like it's the first time :P...

Saturday, May 29, 2004

Japanese are sure thoughtful people, aren't they?...

What an enlightening evening it was… I was watching my fave show (a Japanese Dorama by the title Beauty of the Beast) at Channel 8… And as usual, there’s nothing better than a Japanese Dorama… Today’s episode was about one of Kuze-san’s family… His wife wanted their daughter to enter Shio Sen, an elite school at any cost… Even if it’s through an illegal way (backdoor)… The daughter, Chihiro, loved her parents very much… To the extend that she had pushed herself to the limit, ignored all that she wanted to do, her friends, and by entering Shio Sen, parting with the guy she loved as well as her friends… But she just kept quiet…

I’m not going to blab about what happen in the story… But what happens in the end, is what urged me to write this… Some parents think that they and only they know what’s bet for their children… They mapped the journey, planned the future, and told their children to obey, without asking whether their children liked it or not… Well, some of you might think that I’m being unfair, since I myself a bachelor… But does being a parent grants you the privilege of being right all the time?... Being a parent, there are times when the children will have to follow what they said… But, there are also times when the parents themselves have to agree to what their children have to say… Although it is an unopposed fact that a child must agree to his parent’s wisdom… Talking about wisdom, what is wisdom actually?... Is it the ones we learn from school?... No… those are knowledge… Wisdom comes from experience, and also by being able to differentiate between what’s right or wrong… In other words, wisdom does not necessarily come with age… Okashii na, the usually silly Shinnoir talking about wisdom and all… I guess there’s more than the usual yancha neko than meets the eye :3…

I guess the same case applies to what’s happening in Aiko’s family… And maybe in some of my friends’ families… It did happen in my family once; fortunately my mum is willing to let me deal with my life on my own… And I wish that someday, Aiko’s parents will realize that, and let her deal with her life, interfering only when she gets over the edge… Isn’t that what parents should do, when their children can think for themselves?...

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cloudy gray...nobody can figure u out


What color best describes u?
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You are a dragon!! YOu are scary and a bully... lighten up dude
Cool! A Dragon!! Watch out now!


!!WHaT KiND oF HaRRy POtTEr CReATuRE aRE yOU????!!
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You're Jet.  People see you kinda like a father.  You respect, honor, and cherish lots of things.  You are one who knows right from wrong and you try and keep things in order.
You're Jet. People see you kinda like a father.
You respect, honor, and cherish lots of things.
You are one who knows right from wrong and you
try and keep things in order.


!-Which Cowboy Bebop Character are you?-!
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I am sad. Or is that I WANT to be sad?
You are a Sad person. Its okay. There are more
people on the world who care about your
mistreated self then you think. Cheerup. Life
isnt that bad, right? Besides, if you werent
here you wouldve missed out on...FREE samples
at the chocolate place! Okay...that doesnt
help...but at least some people understand. You
are kind of overly sad. Its bad so, cheerup.
Youre not a "nobody" stop saying
that, its getting kind of....overwhelming.
Sorry.


(Anime Pics) What kind of Person are You?
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HASH(0x8a76bb4)
Land Air 'Mech (LAM).
You are a very rare breed of 'Mech that can either
fight on the ground or sprout wings and fly!
This makes you extremely manouverable and
versatile on the battlefield. Outside your
cockpit, you have a kind heart and are
confident of being able to cope with any
crisis, though this can sometimes lead to
arrogance. Examples of Land Air 'Mechs include
the Pheonix Hawk LAM, Stinger LAM and Wasp LAM.


(Battletech) What type of Battlemech are You?
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Friday, May 28, 2004

Just another day, me alone, in a sauna-like room >_<

Wahlau... An ACCIDENT!!!... Yep, I saw an accident (actually, an aftermath of an accident) in front of Ungku Azizah Voca School... Pretty bad... I hope the driver's okay...

Btw, here's some quizzes I robbed from Kitsu's page X3... Even snatched his smileys X3...

1. Sleep with or without clothes on? Depends on my mood :3… Boku ga ecchi desu~~

2. Prefer black or blue pens? Blue~~

3. Dress up on Halloween? Mmm… Haven’t tried that yet…

4. Like to travel? Of course~~

5. Like someone? Mochiron desu~~

6. Does he/she know? Yup…

7. Sleep on your side? Etoo… as in?...

8. Think you're attractive? Zannen… Iie desu >_<…

9. Want to marry? Nope…

10. Who? No means no lah >_<

11. Are you a good student? Layzee mah, not good lah

12. Are you currently in a relationship? Unfortunately, N O

13. Are you involved in sports? I hate sports, except bowling…

15. Christmas or Halloween? Christmas X3

16.Colored or black-and-white photo? Coloured

17. Do long distance relationships work? Depends lor… It takes two to make a relationship works X3

18. Do you believe in astrology? Not really…

19. Do you believe in God? Mochiron~~

20. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yup…

21. Do you consider yourself the life of the party? No, I’m the death of a party… sometimes very shy one lor…

22. Do you drink? Water, no alcohol please X3…

23. Do you have a car? Toy car? No. Real car? Can’t afford >_<

24. Do you have a job? hmm… does being in a multi-level marketing counts as a job?

25. Do you make fun of people? Always ~~~

26. Do you think dreams eventually come true? uhh… dreams as in sleep dream or ambition?

27. Fave thing to do? sit in front of my comp for several hours X3

28. Fave breakfast food? Anything under the sun, as long as it is halal X3

29. Fave Candy? too many to list down X3

30. Fave Vacation spot? J A P A N X3

31. Favorite body part of the opposite/same sex: cheek, because you can touch it without offending the other person X3

32. Favorite cartoon? Any type of Japanese Anime

33. Go to the movies or rent? Movies, and pirated cd/dvd X3… ALL HAIL THE PIRATES!!!

34. Have you ever moved? hmm… in terms oh house, NO. in terms of my room (at college) A LOT >_<

35. Have you ever stolen anything (from a store)? nope

36. How's the weather right now?unpredictable

37. Hug or kiss? Hug

38. Last person you talked to on the phone? my mom’s customer

39. Last time you showered? a few months back X3… but taken a bath 2 hours ago

40. Loud or soft music? loud, but must be Jpop

41. McDonalds or Burger King? Burger king X3… can refill until your stomach burst

42. More romantic; baths or showers? bath, can play footsie under the bubble X3

43. Night or day? night

44. Number of Pillows? two~~ and none of them on my head >_<

45. Piano or guitar? can’t play any, but want to learn, if anyone’s willing to teach >_<


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

______Your Life_______
[x] they call me: Is, Shin-chan, Shinnoir, Mat, etc :3
[x] sex: Male
[x] my first breath of air: 16th Sept 1983
[x] status: Single, but may not be taken… For now :3

_______Rewind_______
[x] most memorable memories: Times spent with bestfriend :3
[x] worst?: Making really stupid mistakes >_<

_______Love?_______
[x] love is: the essence of life
[x] first love: a girl (puppy love) when I was in Standard 2 (she DID return it :3)
[x] love or lust?: Love
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person at the same time: Depends. Love can be at different degrees. So, you may be in love with more than one person, but you must know how to differentiate :3
[x] true or false- all you need is love: As long as it is mutual, TRUE
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: That’s FATE’s business X3
[x] are you in love right now?: Yes
[x] How many times have you been in love? : A few times, but so far, never in a successful relationship >_<

_______Opposite Sex_______
[x] turn ons: The inner beauty. A girl = must have some of my mum’s trait. A guy = can protect me, yet never possessive :3
[x] do your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: A bit, but they usually let me get on with my own decision
[x] what kinda hair style?: Short. Boyish short
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: Understand me and treat me well, and doesn’t treat me like I’m crap >_<
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: Online, gatherings, social activities
[x] are you the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers? No way >_<

_______Picky Picky_______
[x] dog or cat: N E K O desu~~~
[x] short or long hair: Long, zettai ni :3
[x] sunshine or rain: Rain
[x] moon or sun: Moon
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: Bestfriend
[x] summer or winter: W I N T E R :3
[x] written letters or e-mails: E-mail. Faster :3
[x] play station or nintendo: Play Station
[x] car or motorcycle: Both, as long as they are really fast
[x] house party or club: H O U S E P A R T A Y!!! X3
[x] what song are u listening to right now?: Let Me Be With You (Chobits)
[x] how many kids do you want to have?: I don’t even know if I’ll be married or not >_<
[x] son's name?: See above
[x] daughter's name?: See above
[x] how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop?: 2 licks, 2 mins of sucking, and one bite X3
[x] do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend?: No >_<
[x] what do you like most of the opposite sex?: They don’t ask too much about your private matters :3
[x] Personality-wise: Mysterious, caring, hard to understand X3

Wooh... *Sweating* The day is so damn H O T...

~2345hrs~

It turns out that today's not really "panas hingga ke petang"... It rained like hell in the evening... Complete with a thunderstorm... Fortunately it only lasted for a couple of hours... And later when I got online, it happens that the peribahasa i used applies to other matters as well... Haih...

Aiko got another problem... Cypher told me, and later I took a peek at Aiko's blog... This time, it's a losing battle we are fighting... Read all about it here... I wish I could do something drastic... But what?... Kidnap her?... That's a good one, but too... ... ... drastic?... God, this is like watching "Romeo and Juliet: Modern Chinese Version"... And I thought Malay parents were much stricter... >_<

So, me and Cypher went to our battle plan conference mode, and discuss what should we do... from what I can conclude, the next few weeks will not be good... Haih... to any of you who read Aiko's blog, please think of a way to help her get through this, onegai...

Well, after we discussed it for sometime, Aiko walks in, and we invited her to join the "partay"... Later, Cypher got a lil' mixed up, and tersilap window... Thus the name "Christine" was spoken... And I got my first missile >_<... I tried to be nice, got another four letter missile (and it's not L O V E)... I apologize, and guessed what I got... ANOTHER MISSILE T_T... She hates me to the guts... And it all started with a simple gossip... Maybe I should start some more... Then again, for Cypher's sake, I'd better not...

Well, I guess I'll have to see how things turns out for these couple of weeks... To chris, Aiko really needs you at the time... Your task, keep her company, via SMSes... Do try to be discreet... We both don't want Aiko to get into trouble with her parents.... Especially her mom... I really want to see the two of you hit it off... Just don't forget to include me in the guest list :P...

The discussion about Aiko's situation brought us to a plan that will be going on for a year and a half... The final showdown will be after the BIG ONE, with Aiko convincing her parents to accept Chris-sama... Here's the rundown:

Phase One: Re-earning the trust of her mom
Aiko must study more downstair, in clear view of her mum... Plus, she must show her mum the proof that she's studying: her exercise papers, especially those that has high marks... The objective must be achieved by one month... At this point, her mum might take off the ban... But the duration of this phase is up until the end of the plan, so that it doesn't make her mum suspicious...

Phase Two: The Invisible Chris-Sama
Aiko must Chris in SECRET... He must make himself disappear, at least from Aiko's parent's view... That means less calls, but SMSes would be okay... He must remain hidden until the final showdown... No hard feelings, Chris... But if I had to be cruel to make things better, then I will... Objective = to take Chris off Aiko's mum's "Hate List"... Duration = until after SPM...

Phase Three: Final Showdown
This will take part either during the SPM holiday, or after the result is out... It's up to Aiko and Chris... They will have to convince both party (Aiko's as well as Chris' parents) to accept them... How?... That's Aiko's and Chris-sama's job to figure out...

Well, that wraps it all... I hope this one works...

Thursday, May 27, 2004

There are more people who act childish, other than me???... Cool X3...

Yosh X3... Mom woke me up, and ask me to go to da city X3... Yaaay... To pay the telekom bills :P... So I went, and since she said that I could have the balance, I bought myself a comic, and the usual dose of The Star :P...

Went straight home, taking a bus ride for the first time X3... Hit the comp, played some game, and later get online... And met Graf-chan and Kitsu-chan X3... Both ask the same q = Who am I?... X3...

~12.30am~

Chatted with a lot of people X3... Kitsu, Miaka, Cypher, ruriko, Ihab, Xiong, Jay, etc... Cypher gave me a glaring red angry face for the gossip I made up >_<... Nyuuu~~~~... Gomen, Cypher-sama... I was just joking X3... Kitsu was online tonight, contrary to what Cypher-sama said... And he showed me his piece of mind about cypher... Radio CF... None stop talking blablabla... I was technically on my ass laughing... Ihab had just finished his exam (wheee~~)... And he's excited about getting home... Me?... Devastated X3...

Xiong got a prob... He has a crush!!! X3... But he don't know how to approach her... Damn git... That thick skull of him won't accept suggestions easily, and his uber smart brain is damn good at making excuses... To Xiong, say byebye to your crush... Unless a miracle happens and you take all the necessary measures needed... I even had Jay to help me help him... And Jay had the feeling that he'd love to kick Xiong... Maybe I should import him to KL and kick some reasons to Xiong... Haih...

Then Jay told me about his recent misadventure with his ex... Nasty, I tell you... Serves her right, being the git she is... Got a slap for being a git X3... Jay is waaay happier without her... Well, we chatted until I'm the last person awake in the house... But hell, today was F U N X3...

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Dou suru?... Dou suru~~~... X3...

Okay... I still haven't touched the letter >_<... I dunno how to do it T_T... Asking Miyabi (the Wondergirl X3) for help... Maybe she knows how to deal with that... And sure, she did X3...

Kaede and Aiko sounds cheerful today... Though haven't "talk" personally with them :P... *Sigh* And Ihab said I'd make a lousy brother... Then again, he's always right... Maybe I am a lousy brother :3... I do tease people mercilessly X3 X3...

Well, I'm off to manga scan hunting... Target = Yami no Matsuei... Thanks to Mei-chan, I've already have the first chapter... Now going to hunt for mo... God knows how many...

On a Jpop Marathon... X3...

Okay... I'm determined to finish my letter of applying to change my majoring today... Zettai ni... Got the names of those I need to notify, now I need the format... Bleargh >_<... Tsumaranai ne...


Neways, MORE QUIZZES X3 X3 X3...

Squall
You're like Squall Leonhart!

Squall is an expressionless distant teenager from
Balamb Garden. He is troubled by his dreams,
and finds the whole concept of emotions very
hard to grasp but he soon finds that after
meeting Rinoa he now understands them.


????What Final Fantasy VIII Character are you????
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anime junkie!
You are TOTALLY ADDICTED!!! You LOVE anime, manga,
and all of the like. If anyone disses anime,
you're very likely to throw a text book at
their head (admit it) And then kill them with
your fave mech anime weapon (which you have
created after hours of painstaking work and
research). You walls are plastered with it,
it's bursting out of your closet doors, you
computer is over flowing with it, and you have
a lot under your bed. You might also have some
J-pop/rock starts tied up in there somewhere...


Are You Addicted to Anime?
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Ashitaka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You are ASHITAKA!!!! *EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!* I
LOVE that guy! He is a prince that became
cursed and ventured far from his lands seeking
a cure for his curse. YOU ARE: BRAVE, KIND TO
EVERYONE,smart, and have some strange special
qualities about you. Lots of people love ya for
that.*EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!*


((((Which Princess Mononoke character are you?)))))
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20% seme
20% Seme


How seme are you?
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What's a seme, anyway? X3...






Are you a Seme or Uke?



You are Subaru!
Sumeragi Subaru: sweet, kind and caring! Of course
you can be a little naive, but that's not a bad
thing! Just don't let it cloud your
judgement...


Which CLAMP uke are you?
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you are jubei, steadfastly loyal to those you love and more than willing to die for them. usually silent, you have problems making jokes of any kind.  the only other negative thing abou
kakei jubei


which getbackers anime character are you?
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Mom's bitching about a fashin webbie that I've promised to find for her... My fault :P...

Nya nya nyaaa~~~~... X3

Damn... Couldn't get online last night... Nazeka the server didn't respond... So I wasted my time playing Spider solitaire double instead...

The day started as usual (B O R I N G)... And I sucked the whole day playing Prince of Qin (okay, the game IS out of date, but Diablo2 is waaaay older... Then my mom started to leter about me playing game all the day... And whined about not opening the windows and stuffs... Give it a rest Mom... As if I never do things without you ordering >_<...

Went to sleep at 0030, after reading some yuri fanfictions (so I'm a pervert, shoot me)... And woke up at 0430... To the sound of the sport festival held by the rats who happened to live on my ceiling >_<... Current event, 4x4 4meter race... Hit the internet, and met Box oniichan... He suggested me to catch the rats and eat them @_@... He and his antiques... Mattaku... Gos back to sleep when for some reason got a bluescreen winXP message... WTF O_O...

~Next morning~

Woke up at 8, hit the internet, and take the usual blog reading stroll X3... Aiko's mood seems a litthe light, but still unsure about her and Chris... For what I can see, Chris is VERY sure about it... To Aiko, if you are reading this, I never met Chris, but I know he's a good man... Lighten up, take things at a slow pace, and everything (including those nasty people we called parents) will definitely be okay... And one more thing, even lovers need some time away, and exam periods are some of those time... Look at the bright side, distance do make the heart goes fonder (me with lovey dovey qoutes :3)... Dakara, anshinshite kudasai...

To Chris, if you are reading this (I hope you do, although theres no proof that you have been), take care Aiko for me, onegai... I can't be as close to her as you can, albeit the current ban her parents put on you... I know you mean well, and you really mean what you said in Aiko's blog... One reminder, though... Her friends will hunt those who dares to break her heart, and so will I... And those who did break her will be lucky if I get to them first before the rest of the crew X3...

Well, that wraps it all... And all this lovey dovey going on makes me feel damn lonely T_T...

Monday, May 24, 2004

Owww... My head...

Today is so... ... ... B O R I N G T_T...

Nothing happens for the first part of the day... I just slept for the most of it... Mum told me that wild boars had strike again, and she's somewhat tak puas hati since my uncle and his merry men didn't heed her suggestion... Oh, well... Their loss... :p...

Currently suffering from a headache the size of a Miyabi on the Richter scale... Why Miyabi?... I just like the sound of it :3... Hit the internet at 2750hrs, greeted by Hakkai_Sis (again)... Wonders of all wonders... And she's nice to me, buat julung-julung kalinya @______@... We exchanged yaoi pics :P... She gave me some DN Angels and Saiyuki, and I gave her Gravitation...

Aiko had some doubts about her and Chris... Lucky me, not in love...Although I AM in love with someone, but it's not like it will be returned... *Sigh*... Oh well... I guess I better stay clear from this... Unless she asked for my opinion...

Sunday, May 23, 2004

Nyaaa~~~... Me still sleepy lor >_<...

*Yawn*... Thanks for the uber late tuck in, I'm on the losing side of the sleepy battle... Went on a Gravitation manga download spree last night... So far, the site that I download the manga from had 3 books translated (downloaded em all :3), so I guess I'll send the owner an e-mail of gratitude, and a lil motivation, perhaps?...

While d-loading Gravitation, Abg Izar ping-ed me, and we had like an hour and a half of chat... We talked about our current news a bit, a bit about love life and all... Boy, do I missed the good ol' time...

~4.45pm~

Just woke up from my "ugly" sleep... Read Kaede's and Aiko's blog, and I can't help but to wish I could fly all the way from JB to KL... Just for the two of them T_T... It seems that their feud with their parents is getting worse... And at the worst times possible (make that almost worst time possible)... Exam period... And it seems that Cypher got their tempias as well >_<... Maybe it's because I spent my teenage life in a boarding school, I had never experienced these things... And I don't know if it's good or bad not to experience them...

My comp buat hal lagi... It now has an extra lag from time to time on the internet... Siao punya dial up >_<... Gtg for now... The weather's unfriendly... Maybe because my sunshine girls are not as sunny as they used to be...

~2am~

Okay, I know this is already tomorrow... But what the heck... Chatted with Cypher and Jay, my bro... Cypher and I were thinking about sending insurgency troops to a battlefield, to help a friend... Aiko, that is... While I chosed a more direct approach, Cypher opted to stand guard first... Taking the wait and see stand... Maybe it's better taking his stand, though... Safer, and will take less casualties (wohoo, military terms @__________@)... But I think I'll still forward a truce plan to Aiko... Just suggesting... In the end, it's her choice... I just hope that I won't be listed alongside her parents if she doesn't like the idea >_<... She might hate the guts of me... Me and Jay talked about merrier matters... Like any siblings would 9the difference is, I'm not biologically his sibling)...

Met with Madi, and talked a bit with him (still talking while typing this blog)... He's worried about Xiong... Well, he met Xiong before me, and do share some simmilarities with the latter... He missed me ( Y A O I :3), and asked me when will I come back... He's my schoolmate anyway... And one of the closes... But not the one who holds my heart :P... Muahaha...

Did some blog-reading around... And hopefully got to get more friends doing so... I should have done this earlier... This is F U N X3...






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